I Like...

I like that there are words like "flabbergasted".
I like the fact that the phobia of long words is known as Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia.
I like how a full Moon looks behind trees.
I like little lamps with really big and bright lightbulbs.
I like how kisses feel in the rain... I like how kisses feel, period.
I like sleeping on the grass.
I like talking to babies and dogs.
I like to hold hands.
I like listening to music before going to sleep.
I like listening to the Beatles on a rainy day.
I like tasting something I had never tasted before.
I like laughing when it's not necessary.
I like my friends and I like that they like me back.
I like things that don't make sense.
I like the freedom to dislike things.
I like being in love
and I like that the world is filled with things I can like.

Don't let the overly complicated things cast a shadow over those wonderful little things.

I'd Save You From The Zombies But I'm Too Busy Not Caring

Pt.1

Emergency News Broadcast:

June 21st, 2008 at 2:15pm, chaos was declared in the small island of Puerto Rico. An unknown virus has stricken the island taking over the human nervous system and turning them into primal, carnivorous beings. Once bitten by one infected, the virus will rapidly course through the blood straight to the brain and this cannot be reversed. The only way to "disarm" the infected... Is by destroying the brain. With nowhere to run to but sea, there is little hope for the citizens of Puerto Rico.

/end broadcast/

-"Close the doors! Close the fuckin' doors!", cried Geenah; a 19 year old girl desperately trying to keep the infected from entering her house. "Shh, shh. You hear that?" She motioned her family to remain quiet while she made out the strange noises coming from the outside. Suddenly, she hears a thud, like a body falling from her roof. Then, her dogs barking furiously and yelps. Silence. One had found a way into her house and ate her dogs.

Geenah - "Fuck! Fuck! They can climb through the roof. How in the Hell...? Great. Motherfucker. The kitchen door won't hold 'em. Hell, he can just put his hand through that useless window door and just open it."
Lucy - "What do we do?" Asked her mom in a tone of despair.
Geenah - "We... We have to kill it."
Ariel - "Are you fucking insane? And have that brain-dead fuck bite us so we turn into that blood-sucking... thing?" Yelled her older cousin at her.
Geenah - "It's not a vampire, idiot. And what do you suggest? Just let it bang the door till all the others wandering the street decide to join the party? I don't know if you noticed, but half the neighborhood is infected."
Ariel - "Ah, Fuck."
Lucy - "Could both of you pleasing stop swearing so damn much? It's bad enough we're trapped in a house surrounded by zombies, but I also have to deal with your grandmother, who's in the room about to go into cardiac arrest. So, your yelling, not helping the situation. AT ALL!"

As Ariel sighed, Geenah pondered for a second and then curiously turned to him and asked: "Can we call them zombies?"
Ariel - "You are such a retard."
Geenah - "Shut up. Um... We should... Stab it in the head. That's all we fucking got in here; kitchen knives."
Ariel - "Are YOU gonna do it? I sure as hell am not. Mm mm, and have that nasty bitch bite off my beautiful face? Nope, don't think so."
Geenah - "GAY! Ughh, fine you pussy. Just open the door slightly and when that infected loser comes in, I just fucking stab it in the head. I mean, there's only one in here and if we get rid of it we can lock the gate to the terrace so no more of those fuckers get in."

As he did just what she told him too, Geenah took the biggest kicthen knife in the house and sliced the head of their infected neighbor. As blood covered their kitchen floor, Geenah smiled realizing she liked killing that zombie more than she thought she would.

Pt.2 The Plan

Ariel stood there for second, wondering what they would do with a kitchen full of blood and a man laying in it. They looked at each other and knew that they had to find a way to get it out of their house.

Geenah: - "We can't keep this in here. It'll stink up the house. Help me drag it out of here."
Ariel: - "To where, the garbage cans outside? Hah, yea right."
Geenah: - "To the yard, I guess. Just dump it out there to rot."
Ariel:- "Sure, but that implies touching him. Won't we get infected too? I need my brain to have sex properly."
Geenah:- "You won't. Look it's like an STD, unless you have an open cut blood can come through, or if you fuck it, you won't get infected. And I don't think that you are that desperate. J-Just get some fucking gloves and help me!"

They proceeded to drag the corpse out of to the kitchen towards their backyard. They struggled with it, but eventually managed to do so. As they stood behind the gate of the house, Geenah and Ariel grew uneasy. The eerie moans of the infected coming from outside the house just perturbed them more so. They knew that if one of them could get inside their house, so could the rest of them, and kitchen knives were not enough to stop a whole neighborhood.

Geenah: - "We can't stay here, y'know?"
Ariel: - "And what do you suggest? Just go out there to the mercy of the Lord, hoping we'll be okay?"
Geenah:- "No. Just. . . I know you only took it for a short while. . . But. . ."
Ariel:- "But what? Out with it, out!"
Geenah:- "Ok, so. I have a plan. . . And it involves you flying a plane." She smiled nervously. "But only a small one."

Pt.3 Love You To Death

Geenah:-"Okay, so here's the plan." She said with a proud smile. "There's a small airport, not too far from here, in Humacao. They have those small planes and I think you can do it... Can't you?"
Ariel:-"Well, I took only a few piloting classes and most of them were in simulators."
Geenah:-"Whatever, same thing. So...whaddaya think?"
Ariel:-"Great? And how are we getting there?"
Geenah:-"Duh, Mama's van. It'll be safe in it."

And so they started preparing for the dangers they might confront. The plan was to get to the airport and then fly to Puerto Rico's sister island, Vieques. There, it was speculated that the virus had not reached the even smaller island. They took with them everything that may help them defend themselves. Ariel grabbed a rusty machete he found in the shed. Geenah decided she was going to stick with her big knife and her mom, Lucy, grabbed a pail. Their grandmother, whom they refered to as "Mama" was too heavily sedated to notice the end of times. Ariel thought that he needed to also go get his girlfriend Vanessa, but Geenah told him it was too risky so they both agreed that they would tell their love interests to meet them at the airport at six and if they weren't there, they would leave. So, Geenah and her family left their house behind to try and look for a safe place. They ran over a few of those who got in their way.

Midway, Geenah got a call from her friend.

Geenah:-"Holy shit! Davey, are you okay?"
David:-"I-I don't know. They're everywhere!! All of my friends... everyone!"
Geenah:-"Look, we can get out. I have a plan, maybe you can come, where are you?"
David:-"I'm... I'm.... Oh my God... Nicky? Aaah!!"

And his screams were the last thing she heard of her friend before the call became nothing but static. She tried to reach him back, but maybe it was too late. Maybe he was gone now, too.

They got there and tried to call Vanessa, but she wouldn't pick up. A few minutes later, Vash, Geenah's boyfriend, arrived. He looked flustered and dazed. She fell into his arms and asked him how he was.

Vash:-"They-They got my dad! They just fuckin' ate him! I couldn't do anything, and I don't know where my sisters are. I just had to go. I didn't knwo what to do. And in trying to fight them off my dad, I got bitten. . . I just had to go." He said fractically.
Geenah:-"Oh." She said as she let go of him.
Vash:-"What?" She only looked at him. "Baby, what?!"
Geenah:-"It's just that. . . You're infected now. You're one of them."
Vash:-"No, I'm not. I feel fine, that's why we're leaving anyways, to get help. I'll get help and everything will be alright."
Geenah:-"That's just it, you won't be alright. You won't. I can't risk it."
Vash:-"Baby? What, what do you mean you can't ris-"

And before Vash could finish speaking, Geenah had driven her knife to his heart. Weakened and on his knees, he managed to say:-"W-why? I thought you loved me. . ."
Geenah:-"I do. That's why I did it."

She kissed his forehead and slit his throat. Her love's blood flooded under her feet and she said "I love you" one last time. Her family looked at her stunned and to their glances she responded:-"I take no risks. We either leave here safe and clean, or we don't leave at all. But by God, I will leave, even if it means getting rid of some people. . . It's not my fault he got bitten, okay?! Not my fuckin' fault. Now, Ariel, try to reach Vanessa. She has one hour."

Pt.4 This Is The End

Ariel looked at Geenah and finally decided that it was not up to her to choose their fate and that he would be better off alone.

Ariel:-"You know what, Geenah? I don't need you or any of you, I can fend for myself just fine. I mean, have you seen my muscles? The truth is, I'd be better off just going off to find my Darling Vanessa and leaving here with her."
Geenah:-"What?! You'd rather go for her than to be with your family?! What a douche bag!"
Ariel:-"Whatever, I'm outta here."

So, he ran to the car as fast as he could, so that no one could stop him and left his family deserted in the small airport while the infected started to get closer and closer to them.

Finally, Geenah and her mother and grandmother were surrounded. They fought them off as much as they could, but ultimately, they were too much. Soon, her mother as well as her grandma were one of them and Geenah had no choice but to kill them. But she couldn't. She was on her knees, crying, just waiting for it to be her turn, to become one of them. But they didn't harm her, for some reason her infected mom, grandma and the rest of them, strayed away from her.

Geenah:-"What's going on?! Don't you want me too? Mom, c'mon! Just eat me, bite me, whatever, I can't be left alone, I can't!" Sobbing, she pleaded the infected to make her one of them. But they didn't. As if they respected her, or didn't want her at all.

She sat in the middle of the airport for hours, just watching her family and the other infected just wander around. Then, her cellphone rang, the screen said "Vanessa".

Geenah:-"What?"
Ariel:-"G-Geenah? You're okay?"
Geenah:-"Well, I'm answering the phone, what do you think?"
Ariel:-"Great! Look, I'm here entering the airport, I got Vanessa, she wasn't too far from here. Her family's car was attacked and she got only a small bite, oh, I see you, bye."

Ariel and Vanessa got off the car and walked towards Geenah, carefully watching out for the infected.

Ariel:-"Where's Mama and Aunt Lucy?", bitterly, Geenah answered: "Dead".
Ariel:-"Oh, but listen, we're all okay. We can still get out."
Geenah:-"I thought you said she was bitten."
Ariel:-"Yea... But only a small bite, she'll be okay. Come on, let's go, they're getting closer."
Geenah:-"You go, have her eat your fucking brains out and crash into the ocean. I'd love to see that for shits and giggles."
Ariel:-"What the fuck got into you? Well, if you don't want to go, Vanessa and I are. Let's go."

He didn't get to far before he was ambushed, it wasn't even too long before Vanessa started attacking him as well. He cried to Geenah for help, he pleaded.

Geenah:-"Yea. . ." She got up and threw her knife away. "I'd save you from the zombies, but I'm too busy not caring."

As she walked away she said to herself "This is the end. . . But not for me."

Born To A House Of Snakes

You hiss and slither behind my back. Quick to attack as I pace forward. You want me out, you want me dead. . .

I fall down as your venom consumes me. Sad to think how I mistook it for something sweet. Not sugar, no. How couldn't I see, that is you who poisons me?

Slowly, I fade. Your hisses sound like laughter. Just crawl away.

Silly me, I should have known not to trust any of you. Yes, I admit that was my mistake, I didn't realize I was born to a house of snakes.

kiss me

kiss me for just a second
and i'll forget just how
you beautifully deceived me
how i came when you beckoned

kiss me like you mean it
like you have done before
one lie between lips
an eternity your whore

About me?

I am whoever you want me to be. Whoever I feel like being. I am a mystery and everything you already know.

A shadow willing to be shown to a world that has shone her down. A laugh in the awkward silence when no other word is known.


Fixed up by make-up and tragedies. Living only with dreams and memories. Geenah is my name, but you call me with whatever sounds sweeter to you. . .

You, So Gone

i keep myself to myself
so i won't get lost in you

lying to get what i deserve
i forget the sense of the truth

i couldn't remember you if i tried
i poured you out the last time i cried

you, i held you so dear
so close, i could swear
you were my skin
i breathe; you were my air
you, my first taste of sin
my memories vanished
with no last glimpse of you
my love so tarnished
i could surrender all of me
for one more second
to last an eternity

A Hell To Live In

It's a Hell
to live in everyday
It's the yells, the screams
And the things you say
It's putting me down
When I'm already on the ground
And taking all of my mistakes
To throw them in my face
It's a Hell
To live in everyday
Like all of the hate
Doesn't seem to go away
It's making me feel useless
Like dirt
It's getting enjoyment
In seeing me hurt.

Quiet Rapture

Sometimes I can't find the words I need.

Sometimes I can't say "I Love You" or "Goodbye".

Sometimes the only words that make sense I find in a song.

So, what have I learned?

The year is halfway through and I can't say I've accomplished much.

I've lost more than I've gained (love, friends, self-respect) but I can't really say I regret all that has happened.

Love; never really understood it much. Can't say I've seen it either, not at least in my house. It's always so fleeting. I think I have loved, but I'm not sure if I have ever been in love. With the first one, with my first, with the last and the present. <<God I'm so cryptic>>

For some reason, I discard the ones that would do anything for me, for the ones that I know don't care as much.

As for friends, I don't know if I ever had them to begin with.

And when I talk about self-respect. . . I've done a lot of things I said I would never and became exactly who I always hated.

So, what have I learned?

I'm not sure. Maybe I've grown.

Maybe I've just grown bitter.